It's been incredibly interesting, going from being in a relationship of almost 10 years to being single in a city where everyone knows everyone elses business. Santa Fe isn't very big in general, but when the person you just broke up with is a native...well that becomes a unique situation in and of itself. I've had more people ask me how I'm doing, how Patrick is (if they don't know), ask my friends how I'm holding up...? People I don't even really know well have been giving me their condolences... and oh! isn't is such a shame that after so long our relationship ended...wtf?!? So, to clarify for anyone else who wants to read me the "poor, poor you" speech...
I am doing stupendously. Truly. I'm really doing well. I've signed a 9 month lease on an apartment that I LOVE! I've reconnected with my sisters and mom, which was something that was missing in my life. I've established relationships with people who are uplifting and fun. I've started planning for MY future, which is going to be incredible, the good and the bad. I've also started looking at men...really looking at them. Who they are and what they can offer. My sister told me a few months ago that there are two types of men in this world, those who are genuinely nice guys who try to be assholes every so often and those who are assholes who really try to be a nice guy when they can. I'm ready for a nice guy and I'm not willing to just blindly hop into a relationship with the first guy who shows interest.
So don't cry for me Santa Fe, the truth is, I'm free at last. Finally, I can be me again.
