Yes, I really am going to do this

I have decided to train for a 5K marathon in October. Originally, I wanted Patrick and I to do it together, but since he doesn't seem interested I have asked a friend if she would. We start training tomorrow. Truthfully, this started out as a means for Patrick and I to have something that we could do together. A goal to work towards, if you will. I haven't really run since soccer, but was willing to put in the effort. But, when he told me that he thought I was doing it just because he wanted to and didn't appear happy that I wanted to do something that would involve us spending some time together I almost gave up totally. Then, I decided to hell with that. I want to try. I want to have focus and a goal. I want to be fit and healthy. So, now I have 3 months to train for a 5K - just 3.1 miles. I'm really excited truth be told. I think it will be a challenge, but one that I am up for.

I'm also in the process of redecorating and reorganizing our room. I have removed a lot of crap, that doesn't belong in a bedroom. I've taken down a lot of pictures that are appropriate for a guest room...not a bedroom. I've also put up some photos of us which really gives the room a personal feeling. I finally feel comfortable sleeping in there...like it is actually mine. Although temporary, I am tired of feeling like I'm sleeping in a hotel room - that "never really unpacked" feeling. I think, when I'm done, it will look really great.

I ordered my dress for Gemma's wedding and I have to say, it looks amazing! I am really happy that I told Gemma I wasn't happy wearing someone else's wedding dress. It's very Grecian goddess and I will look lovely.

Spoke with Julie yesterday for about 2 hours on the phone. I miss her so much. Gemma too, but it is nice to have someone who knows both Patrick and I well enough to really listen to me about what I have been going through and feeling the last few weeks. She has demanded that I come out for a visit as soon as I can and that it would be good for me to get away. I have to agree. I am going to start looking at the calender to see if there is a time I can get away before school starts. She also firmly stated that CA has a high demand for nurses and that I should seriously consider moving out there once I have graduated. Which, I may actually look at as a possibility. She has offered up their guest bedroom as a place to stay until I was able to get a place of my own. We'll see. I still have a year to go before all is said and done.

Swimming is going very well and I'm looking forward to starting scuba diving lessons. I think it will be a great experience and another skill to add to my growing list.

I was telling a class mate about all the things I am planning and doing and she says, "And nursing school? When will you have time for that?". But finally, I feel fullfilled...like I am doing more than just watching and waiting for life to pass me by. I feel...good.